Me is so confused : /
The day before yesterday, and yesterday were very interesting days... Thursday, I went to the base pool with Josh and Joe and had just a great time with em. Afterwards I came home, did a little bit of nothing and then went over to Sarah's house. Some people showed up and we watch a movie. Me and Beth hardcore fought in her basement. It was a lot of fun, let out a lot of stress. I'd like to do it again sometime real soon.
Friday, yesterday, I got up and went down to the Boardwalk for just a little bit.. I went with Josh, Soo, Sarah, Ben, some other girl that I never caught the name of, Joel, and Becca. Although I wasn't there for very long because I had to get back for work, I still had a pretty good time getting out and having lunch with them. Went into work, got the joy of "terminating" a new employee. Ask me if you'd like to know more about how I can be an ass.
Last night, played some outwar which haven't done in awhile... I totally rock that games world, haha. Talked to a few people in my crew and etc. That whole digital world... Also talked to Beth and the issues that I always provoke like an idiot. Things would be a lot smoother and I'd be a lot happier if I just let it all be. Just let it be. When I get sleepy, I get angry, and its always so easy to get grumpy towards her because of the emotions. I had to get up and be at work at 9, after going to bed at 3 that night. I dragged all day... my boss thought I was on some drugs, haha. Pretty bad for someone to think that. Tonight, I may be going to the fair with my sister, which haven't had much time to even talk to her lately. Also may go to the beach tommarow with either her, or becky and the gang. Becky anad them are going for crabs... no way for me! YuCk!

Ouch ouch, the good kinda pain
Today was a rather full day! I'm always happy to be actually doing something with my time now with my friends. A couple of us met down at the beach.. (Josh, Becky, Margo, her sister, corey, and sarah) It was a lot of fun. I got stung by a jelly fish though on my right fore arm. It hurt quite a bit. After that we all went to the Grand Slam for dinner. We had our normal waitor, DONNIE. HAHA, funny gay guy. We played pool, air hockey and stuff. I got a mean sun burn and I am pretty red right now.... After we got back I went to the base gym with Josh. I got ripped. My quads hurt like hell. I am really sore sitting here now.

OOOOOOO what a night...
Yesterday was my big BBQ thing that I threw for me and about 10 of my friends.. It went over pretty well I guess. Bugs are the only problem... I spent all day setting it up for the.. like 2 1/2 3 hours that we were down there.. >:(
Once I cleaned up, we all headed over to Joshs for the night. And that is when it all began.. We watched Fight Club. They all busted out the alcohol. Which I would like to point out to all of you guys that I did not drink at all! All of you should take my word much more seriously.. Well yea, I guess I hung around most of the night.. Tyler drank too much and got sick and wanted people to punch him in the face all night. Pretty stupid if you ask me. Josh and Erika kinda busted out in an argument but I think they are fine. I'd like to point out, I was extremely chill last night too. Don't ever say.. what? Eric, chill? Well around 2 I went for a short run.. after that all of the drunk people went to bed.... I stayed up, talked with Beth and Zach most of the night. Beth did most of the talking, which is always really good because I sorta had a more of an interest in hearing what she had to say then him. Zach eventually passed out on the carpet. Around 4 it began to storm so me and Beth got Tyler out of Stefans Jeep and carried him inside and made him a bed. I dunno, everyone says poor Tyler, but I really don't feel the sympathy for him because he knew what he was getting himself into.... He brought a low of drama on himself. After that, talked and play faught with Beth a lot. We ended up staying up the whole night. We had to leave early because Josh had gym. We pretty much cleaned up, well Beth did for the most part actually. Got the few left out of there.
Overall, considering all of the crap I had to hear last night from the walking vegetables I still had a good time. I accomplished a lot I think. I mean, I got some respect from people, that I didn't have anything to drink. Hopefully Beth, who I promised but, evenly more important I proved it to myself. I also kept myself on the chill level with everyone. Didn't run around like an idiot. I think that deserves some respect. On top of that, I think I proved it that me and Beth can actually get along just fine. I mean hey, we lived through the night didn't we? Ha, I'm proud by the way I acted last night. Hope we have more of these things in the near future for my sake and hang out with certain individuals much more often as well.

Wicka wicka wicka woo!
HA, yea.. I woke up around 1 day... I mowed the lawn... trimmed the trees... and set up a volly ball net as soon as i got up. All of this for the BBQ tommarow of course which is gonna rock! Afterwards I went to work, which blew. Didn't get out of there til 10:30, thats just ridiculous! After that, I came home.. got online and here I am. Haven't had a very big day.. I've only been up for 12 hours lol. Well, heard the interesting aspect of Beth and how much she hates guys and etc. Really something you don't want to hear from someone like "her". OoOoO well, no offense taken. I gotta get to bized. Big day tommarow for me, I guess!

: ) all smiles
Today.. it was a good day despite the previous couple. I woke up to the IM ring from Zach's message. I rushed and got up to help him wash his stupid bitch dog.. This is when you realize you have to get a life! It was a lot of fun, and I needed to get up and out anyway. That stupid dog, wow. I was impressed on how stupid a four legged creature could really be! She takes after Zach.. pff haha. So after I came home.. the POWER WENT OUT! Not cool when its like a bazillion degrees outsdie and there is no A/C. But it revived itself after alittle bit.. Thank god!
From there, I hung around the house for a bit.. went and bought one of those cool Vortex footballs that usually had whistles on the side... but they didn't have any w/ them so oh well. Its worth 7$ right?
Later on in the day I had my usual cross country practice, at Schutte Park today. We ran.. like usual! I was freakin awesome today though. I was feeling hardcore, I was sweating so much my whole shirt was stuck to my chest and back.. Ooooo I'm hardcore lol.
Oh before practice, I met someone online somehow? I dunno, but it was this chick from Orange County, California! Talked to her for awhile.. pretty aweseome. She is a new buddy on my list. She is so awesome, just for the fact I am so interested in their life style all the way over there. I really like comparing.
Once I got off practice, I went home and showered and immediately went to Denny's with Margo, Erika, Josh, Becky and Zach. It was cool, just all of us hanging out. I enjoyed it very much. I wish we would do stuff like that more often, but we don't... After Denny's, I came home to my usual online chatting. Can't end a single day w/o talking to Beth right? Maybe I'll get lucky some day and she will come around... if I'm lucky, because I'll always be here for her.

I AM GODS HACKY SAC
So, from all of the things that I planned out for the day.. I accomplished all of them except for the last and most important thing to me which was to get out with some friends, which are non-exsistant. I made just over 175 on my check, not bad considering I work 2 days a week I guess but still I don't really care regaurdless. Why do I need money? I don't do anything worthy. I put 80 of it in the bank, maybe that will work up enough to pay the morg. From the bank I came back home and did nothing... I wasted away my life like usual. Then from there I went to cross country practice where the entire course was under water so then I ran anyway. I got absolutely soaked in slime and sweat.. I got a couple of cuts in my arm and on my back where I just absolutely went crazy thinking about the shit I put up with. I hate my life. Today, earlier I went to see Jeremy.. Jeremy is this 8 year old boy that is dieing of cancer that I was introduced to by my boss (Joe). Before today Jeremy thought his cancer was curable.. His parents didn't tell him that he had 5 weeks to live. Now Jeremy is overly depressed not talking, eating, or sleeping. I feel his pain greatly. He didn't show any response to me at all today... but I know what he is going through and it isn't fucking fair. All of you bastards out there thinking oh my life sucks I want to die.. fuck all of you! Saying all of the problems in the world like it owes you something. Well all of you fuckers have a life and oppurtinity. Jeremy doesn't have an oppurtunity and he had hopes and dreams he wants to live for!! Now they are shattered. I want to beat the shit out of every mother fucker that ever comitted suicide because they weren't happy or little bull shit reasons. Jeremy wants to live, he wants to be a baseball player but he will never be one. All of you can just kiss my ass. If I could give him my life, I would. After my practice at Brecknock park I came home.. for which in no one cared to call me to do anything although I begged some individuals to. But of course they didn't because everyone fends for themselves and can give a rats ass about me. I am trying to figure out with what I am doing with my life now. I want to get out and live it but I have all of this weight tieing me down... I feel like a bird that used to be free, that is caged and will never soar the skies again.

You know you are bored, when you have nothing better to do than.. THIS!
Today, I woke up early to go to the dentist.. But it was all good, it's nice because Becky's mom is my hygenist. But for one thing.. she found a cavity.. ugh.. just can't wait to get that thing filled.. ugh!
Which brings me to where I am now.. Doing absolutely nothing! So I guess I'll make some plans for the day and read about it later to see if I actually got up and moved to do something. So yea, I plan to sit here another hour, go fetch my pay check and cash it.. then from there sit around and eat some more.. go to XC practice at 7 for the usual beating.... After practice, maybe I'll get lucky and Beth or someone will call me. I gave her a little "hey call me sometime", maybe it will actually work.. pff. I'll probably do my rounds of calling people to find something to do. If I get lucky I'll get out there but if not.. I'll get right back on this machine of death... Well, guess I'll check it later and see how everything turns out.. Hmm

Iffy iffy iffy day turns good.
Well, no beach today although we really should HAVE gone. Oh well I have pleanty of days left in this summer. So, for awhile there me and Zach hung out. We went to the mall and back to my house and played some good ol' PS2. Yea, he has to be one of my best friends.
Oh yea, so since the first bonfire I had went so well, I am going to have another. I mean hey, why not continue the flow of water if its quenching your thurst? Yep, this Sunday but a little bit earlier and I am going to bust out the volly ball net and maybe we can play some football too, that would be fun. Just all of us hanging out, I could get used to doing it like every week!! We will see what happens. This time I am inviting a few more than last time. The more the merrier right?
So, later today I went to my oh so much cross country practice. Actually, I do enjoy it. I was dieing out there though. It took everything out of me today. The intense heat and humidity took it toll. Ha, an easy practice? No such thing! But alright, we crossed a big black snake that just had dinner which was pretty cool.. then after alittle longer my left foot fell asleep. I didn't think much of it at the time and I pressed forward. When I got home and took off my shoe. It was literally gushing with blood. No joke and I couldn't feel it but it looked so discusting! I took a shower, and it continues to bleed as we speak with the bucket on my foot. Bethany says I have to earn the title of Captain Bucket Foot, so I guess now I am just Bucket Foot. Yea, which brings me to the end of my day. Me and her are settled now after the "little conflict" which is always good because I hate it. So, I am going to bed happy tonight. Imagine that?

It's been awhile...
Yea, I have up on the whole insomnia role after day 4. I was really going crazy. It feels like when you wake up, and you haven't had a shower yet.. but like that all the time! Yea, you feel like crap. 1/2 awake and 1/2 asleep.
So I have been down to the beach 7 times so far. Hopefully 8th time will be tommarow with the weather permiting. Heat index 110!
On the 4th I had some people over for a bonfire and such. About 10 people showed up so I was pretty happy with that. Not a big hassel either, it was pretty cool. Must do that again soon for seriousness.
I've been working lately, sleeping in, and arguing with that poo face, Beth. Turned out its all on me and my misinterpretations. I just want to give in, and get along again, it doesn't matter to me if I was right or wrong anymore. She always seems to say, "well why do you still talk to me for, since you hate the fights and conflict?" Well think about that one for just one second. Well hm' would it be that I like her? Wow, that took all but a hot second for me to figure out, I dunno about the rest of you guys that are aware of my status. Talk about the ruffest roller coaster that I have ever been on, and it looks like its heading for its last drop. Not that is what I am hoping for. God no. Everyone thinks I am insane and a "hopeless romantic", well screw all of you guys because I need someone too....

3 Nights, going on 4?
Today, I began my day watching the sun come up. I "rested" by sitting there during the morning hours. I made an extremely large breakfast for no reason. I've made breakfast before, and some big ones too. But nothing so big, and just for me. Later in the day, I washed my car. That was done just to kill time. I stopped by my work to see when I work next if I work at all. Suprisingly, I actually work tommarow. My boss can be cruel sometimes and rude about the lack of hours that I have been working. I think work comes 2nd in life right after "life". I have my whole life to work. I believe that Ill be going to the beach earlier in the day as well.
Later in the day, Josh,, Corey, Becky, Beth and I went to the bowling alley. I had a lot of fun playing air hocket with Josh there. We really got into it, but he won over all. Stefan, Zach, and Soo were also there while we played 1 game of bowling. We all really really suck big time. Some people got agrevated but I had a good time and I was glad to get out with my friends for a change.
Later, me and Josh did a 1 mile run. My time was 6:34 and Joshs was 6:45. I am proud of Josh, he has come a long way. He is becoming really good at it, I think Josh is serious about getting into shape now.
After that, which was only about 2 hours ago.. I talked to Beth and a couple others online. Beth gets me really upset sometimes and I don't mean to be feminine or anything but common, you have to be serious at sometime right? She told me I couldn't take a hint and pretty much to stop talking to her. SHE HAD ME SO PISSED OFF. She can take my emotions and pull them into the extreme. She is a roller coaster. I think, after all of the lack of sleep that I have had. It is time to call it quits. I am done. I'm too upset and reved up now that I think sleep would do me good.